I made it through yesterday. I don't know how, but I did. I went a bit insane last night by calling Rogers to get them to fix my damn cable like they said they would. Guess what, a technician had to be dispatched again. Grrr. I was very frustrated and was ready to smoke but then asked myself if it would help. Guess what, it wouldn't. So I won that fight. I played some NHL 10 on my Xbox and relaxed a bit.
I need a heavy bag to get through this. Of this I am certain.
I just have nowhere to put it. But ya know what...I could FIND a place for it...I'm sure
Anyway, I made it...I'm past the dreaded 3-week mark. Why oh why is it so much harder this time?
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I have been quit for 3 Weeks, 2 hours and 26 minutes. I have saved approximately $168.80 by not smoking 422 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 11 hours and 10 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Am I going insane?
Well, we're here...I'm on Day 21. Almost quit for a whole 3 weeks. How do I know? I have a counter in more ways than one. I have the electronic one that I use to post at the bottom of my posts, and I also have another empty box of patches. That's how I know.
Anyway, I'm 3 weeks in and I'm having issues.
I want to smoke.
I'm not sure if it's a craving, and urge or whatever they want to call it on the different websites and books and stuff. I have the desire.
I'm trying to work out how this is different from the last time I quit when I quit for almost 5 years. I think this time, my motivation isn't quite there yet. I have written down the reasons that I want to quit, and they really aren't out-weighing the want to smoke. Not reasons to smoke, as they are very few, but the desire.
Could this be a passing phase? Sure it could. Hell, I'm pretty sure it is. I've gone a good portion of my life smoking, so it's going to take time again to quit. But for some reason it's not seeming as easy as it was last time I had quit.
Giving up on the quit is easier than staying on the quit. That's for sure. But will it make me feel better? Physically? Hell no. Mentally? Maybe.
I know the Medical and Physical reasons to quit smoking. We're bombarded with them every day. I also don't want that feeling on a long trip of "When will I be able to have my next smoke". I always looked forward to the stops along the way just to grab a smoke. (If you are a smoker, or used to be a smoker that couldn't smoke in the car...you know what I mean)
I'm choosing to quit. But the main reason I'm choosing not to smoke, is I don't want to disappoint those around me that are supporting me. It's a stupid reason, it really is. I should be worried about disappointing myself, but I'm not. If I were to start smoking right now, I may be disappointed for a few minutes, but then it would pass. I know others would be really disappointed in me, and I don't want to put that on them.
I'm going to do a list again, and write down the pros and cons of starting smoking again. That should be enough to make me not want to start up. I hope.
Keep on with the support folks, I'm not lost yet...
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I have been quit for 2 Weeks, 6 Days, 2 hours and 51 minutes. I have saved approximately $160.94 by not smoking 402 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 9 hours and 30 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Anyway, I'm 3 weeks in and I'm having issues.
I want to smoke.
I'm not sure if it's a craving, and urge or whatever they want to call it on the different websites and books and stuff. I have the desire.
I'm trying to work out how this is different from the last time I quit when I quit for almost 5 years. I think this time, my motivation isn't quite there yet. I have written down the reasons that I want to quit, and they really aren't out-weighing the want to smoke. Not reasons to smoke, as they are very few, but the desire.
Could this be a passing phase? Sure it could. Hell, I'm pretty sure it is. I've gone a good portion of my life smoking, so it's going to take time again to quit. But for some reason it's not seeming as easy as it was last time I had quit.
Giving up on the quit is easier than staying on the quit. That's for sure. But will it make me feel better? Physically? Hell no. Mentally? Maybe.
I know the Medical and Physical reasons to quit smoking. We're bombarded with them every day. I also don't want that feeling on a long trip of "When will I be able to have my next smoke". I always looked forward to the stops along the way just to grab a smoke. (If you are a smoker, or used to be a smoker that couldn't smoke in the car...you know what I mean)
I'm choosing to quit. But the main reason I'm choosing not to smoke, is I don't want to disappoint those around me that are supporting me. It's a stupid reason, it really is. I should be worried about disappointing myself, but I'm not. If I were to start smoking right now, I may be disappointed for a few minutes, but then it would pass. I know others would be really disappointed in me, and I don't want to put that on them.
I'm going to do a list again, and write down the pros and cons of starting smoking again. That should be enough to make me not want to start up. I hope.
Keep on with the support folks, I'm not lost yet...
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I have been quit for 2 Weeks, 6 Days, 2 hours and 51 minutes. I have saved approximately $160.94 by not smoking 402 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 9 hours and 30 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Movies and stuff
Last night I went to the movies to see the new Trailer Park Boys movie. When the movie got out, as we went outside, there were tons of people smoking outside the theatre. I didn't even twitch or want to reach for a pack. That's a good sign. Movie was fun, but it was like a 2 hour episode of the show on TV.
Ended up getting home not feeling good though. I had a whopper from BK and it just didn't sit right with me. Up quite a bit all night due to the ick factor in my stomach. But, I knew it would go away. Well, here it is 2pm and it's still there. Oh well, I know not to eat a whopper for a while now...lol
Today has been a rough day. Not gonna go into all the stresses, but they were here. Yeah, I had a craving, and an urge and they were STRONG. I almost caved, but didn't. So I feel good about that.
So, here's my stats!
Two weeks, four days, 7 hours, 14 minutes and 3 seconds. 366 cigarettes not smoked, saving $146.41. Life saved: 1 day, 6 hours, 30 minutes.
Ended up getting home not feeling good though. I had a whopper from BK and it just didn't sit right with me. Up quite a bit all night due to the ick factor in my stomach. But, I knew it would go away. Well, here it is 2pm and it's still there. Oh well, I know not to eat a whopper for a while now...lol
Today has been a rough day. Not gonna go into all the stresses, but they were here. Yeah, I had a craving, and an urge and they were STRONG. I almost caved, but didn't. So I feel good about that.
So, here's my stats!
Two weeks, four days, 7 hours, 14 minutes and 3 seconds. 366 cigarettes not smoked, saving $146.41. Life saved: 1 day, 6 hours, 30 minutes.
Friday, September 25, 2009
It's Friiiiiday
Well, here we are...at another Friday, and all seems good.
I woke up this morning, slowly mind you, and got out of bed. Went to the living room to grab some stuff and realized that normally I would be going straight out for a smoke at this point. I kind of chuckled to myself, but realized, that was my habit. Maybe I should stop going to the living room first thing in the morning for a bit to break that routine.
Anyway, sleep has been great now that I'm taking melatonin before bed. Ahh, the joys of restful sleep. Cravings are pretty much away from me at this point...right now. I know they aren't gone for good, but for now it feels awesome!
Thanks to everyone again for the support!
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I have been quit for 2 Weeks, 2 Days, 1 hour and 16 minutes. I have saved approximately $128.41 by not smoking 321 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 2 hours and 45 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
I woke up this morning, slowly mind you, and got out of bed. Went to the living room to grab some stuff and realized that normally I would be going straight out for a smoke at this point. I kind of chuckled to myself, but realized, that was my habit. Maybe I should stop going to the living room first thing in the morning for a bit to break that routine.
Anyway, sleep has been great now that I'm taking melatonin before bed. Ahh, the joys of restful sleep. Cravings are pretty much away from me at this point...right now. I know they aren't gone for good, but for now it feels awesome!
Thanks to everyone again for the support!
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I have been quit for 2 Weeks, 2 Days, 1 hour and 16 minutes. I have saved approximately $128.41 by not smoking 321 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 2 hours and 45 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Thursday, September 24, 2009
2 weeks down...
Haven't posted much lately, but I'm still quit. It's been over 2 weeks and the cravings are finally starting to subside more. I'm more agreeable to the fact that I don't smoke anymore.
I can't say I haven't thought about it at all, because I have, but they are down to just fleeting moments. Things are getting better!
I have been quit for 2 Weeks, 1 Day, 4 hours and 26 minutes. I have saved approximately $121.47 by not smoking 303 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 1 hour and 15 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
I can't say I haven't thought about it at all, because I have, but they are down to just fleeting moments. Things are getting better!
I have been quit for 2 Weeks, 1 Day, 4 hours and 26 minutes. I have saved approximately $121.47 by not smoking 303 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 1 hour and 15 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
What a monday
Last night I watched some TV before bed, got myself nice and tired, laid down and could NOT get comfortable. Then the cat came in and started meowing like crazy. I was getting very frustrated. Any little noise was bothering me. Even the girlfriend breathing was getting on my nerves. I stormed out of the bedroom and went and laid down on the couch in the living room hoping to get some sleep there. I got about 20 minutes in before the cat came in there to yell. I was ready to lock the cat in a closet and try to get some sleep. I chose to try the bed again, and after about an hour of tossing and turning, I finally got some sleep. All 4 hours of it before being up for work.And not good restful sleep either.
Smoking dreams again.I do remember at one point, when I first ran to the living room I had thoughts of just going out and getting smokes, but I didn't. I need to reward myself for getting through some stress with something other than a smoke. Just have to figure that out.
Anyway, there's my rant for the moment. Sorry.
---------------I have been quit for 1 Week, 6 Days and 48 minutes. I have saved approximately $104.26 by not smoking 260 cigarettes. I have saved 21 hours and 40 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Monday, September 21, 2009
*yawn*
Yep, it's been a long weekend for me. I didn't smoke still, so it was a successful weekend.
Swedish classes started, and I remembered when I took them a few years ago the want to go for a smoke during the break and before and after class. It was brutal. But I got through it all.
Saturday night went to a wedding reception party and was worried about the cravings creeping in. I haven't had a good drink since I quit almost 2 weeks ago, so I was concerned. I had a nice glass of scotch and sure, got a mild craving, but I saw others go outside for a smoke and stand around shivering and I was glad I wasn't one of them. The scotch tasted nice too ;-)
So, I'm still trucking along, and I figure I'm doing good. I find I do better and get less cravings when I don't think about me quitting smoking. So if I'm not posting on here quite as regularly, that's why. I still want to post more though, so we'll see where that takes me.
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I have been quit for 1 Week, 5 Days, 2 hours and 10 minutes. I have saved approximately $96.71 by not smoking 241 cigarettes. I have saved 20 hours and 5 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Swedish classes started, and I remembered when I took them a few years ago the want to go for a smoke during the break and before and after class. It was brutal. But I got through it all.
Saturday night went to a wedding reception party and was worried about the cravings creeping in. I haven't had a good drink since I quit almost 2 weeks ago, so I was concerned. I had a nice glass of scotch and sure, got a mild craving, but I saw others go outside for a smoke and stand around shivering and I was glad I wasn't one of them. The scotch tasted nice too ;-)
So, I'm still trucking along, and I figure I'm doing good. I find I do better and get less cravings when I don't think about me quitting smoking. So if I'm not posting on here quite as regularly, that's why. I still want to post more though, so we'll see where that takes me.
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I have been quit for 1 Week, 5 Days, 2 hours and 10 minutes. I have saved approximately $96.71 by not smoking 241 cigarettes. I have saved 20 hours and 5 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Thursday, September 17, 2009
detox?
Ok, I'm guessing my body is going through a serious detox. I can't ever remember having a cold sore on my lip, and now I have one. That's the best I can come up with, that it's my body detoxing.
Cravings are still there, but it's getting easier to get past them.
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I have been quit for 1 Week, 1 Day, 9 hours, 29 minutes and 45 seconds (8 days). I have saved $67.15 by not smoking 167 cigarettes. I have saved 13 hours and 55 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 09/09/2009 7:00 AM
Cravings are still there, but it's getting easier to get past them.
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I have been quit for 1 Week, 1 Day, 9 hours, 29 minutes and 45 seconds (8 days). I have saved $67.15 by not smoking 167 cigarettes. I have saved 13 hours and 55 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 09/09/2009 7:00 AM
New post time
Well, it's morning, so I guess it's new post time.
Night was pretty good. Morning was interesting. I took my medicine and everything, got ready for work and then realized, hey, I should probably put a new patch on.
I didn't even think about it until the last second. Not sure if that's a good sign or not. I wouldn't have wanted to take on the day without it, but I'm going to assume it's a good thing.
On a tangent, the Sens were robbed in an exhibition game last night. There was a clear goal that the ref waved off. They showed a few replays of it, and the puck was clearly in the net, well over the line, but they would not review it. It cost them the game. Oh well, good thing it's only exhibition.
Still rockin along.
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I have been quit for 1 Week, 1 Day, 1 hour and 1 minute. I have saved approximately $64.33 by not smoking 160 cigarettes. I have saved 13 hours and 20 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Night was pretty good. Morning was interesting. I took my medicine and everything, got ready for work and then realized, hey, I should probably put a new patch on.
I didn't even think about it until the last second. Not sure if that's a good sign or not. I wouldn't have wanted to take on the day without it, but I'm going to assume it's a good thing.
On a tangent, the Sens were robbed in an exhibition game last night. There was a clear goal that the ref waved off. They showed a few replays of it, and the puck was clearly in the net, well over the line, but they would not review it. It cost them the game. Oh well, good thing it's only exhibition.
Still rockin along.
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I have been quit for 1 Week, 1 Day, 1 hour and 1 minute. I have saved approximately $64.33 by not smoking 160 cigarettes. I have saved 13 hours and 20 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
1 Week
I've hit the one week mark. I haven't had a cigarette in 7 days now. Do I still get cravings? Yes. Did I slip at all? Yes. Let me explain.
I had a very stressful day yesterday. MANY emotions were running through me and I figured I could cure it all by having a smoke (is that junkie thinking or what?).
I grabbed a smoke, lit it up, took 2 puffs and almost puked my guts out. After 7 days, the taste was TERRIBLE. I had a hard time believing that I ever smoked like 20 of those a day. It took alot to get that taste out of my mouth. I sucked on a bunch of mints, drank some coffee (yeah, like that would help), drank some water, bought some strawberries at the market, and finally the taste subsided.
Later that night I had another craving, and all I had to do was remember what it tasted like and I didn't want to have another one. So...all in all, maybe it was a good thing. It was a reminder of one of the reasons to quit. Can I guarantee I will NEVER slip again? No. I can't guarantee anything that may or may not happen. As long as I can remember what those few puffs were like, I may not have to worry though.
Anyway, it's my 1 week mark. I'll be getting some money back from my camera purchase as another store had it on sale! Woo hoo. I just have to go to the store and get that done. Maybe that can go towards the new lens I want to get ;-)
Again, I thank everyone for the support. Big hugs to you all!
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I have been quit for 1 Week, 2 hours and 42 minutes. I have saved approximately $56.89 by not smoking 142 cigarettes. I have saved 11 hours and 50 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
I had a very stressful day yesterday. MANY emotions were running through me and I figured I could cure it all by having a smoke (is that junkie thinking or what?).
I grabbed a smoke, lit it up, took 2 puffs and almost puked my guts out. After 7 days, the taste was TERRIBLE. I had a hard time believing that I ever smoked like 20 of those a day. It took alot to get that taste out of my mouth. I sucked on a bunch of mints, drank some coffee (yeah, like that would help), drank some water, bought some strawberries at the market, and finally the taste subsided.
Later that night I had another craving, and all I had to do was remember what it tasted like and I didn't want to have another one. So...all in all, maybe it was a good thing. It was a reminder of one of the reasons to quit. Can I guarantee I will NEVER slip again? No. I can't guarantee anything that may or may not happen. As long as I can remember what those few puffs were like, I may not have to worry though.
Anyway, it's my 1 week mark. I'll be getting some money back from my camera purchase as another store had it on sale! Woo hoo. I just have to go to the store and get that done. Maybe that can go towards the new lens I want to get ;-)
Again, I thank everyone for the support. Big hugs to you all!
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I have been quit for 1 Week, 2 hours and 42 minutes. I have saved approximately $56.89 by not smoking 142 cigarettes. I have saved 11 hours and 50 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
It's been...almost 1 week
I'm on Day 7 now. Yep, as of Tomorrow I will be at my 1 week mark. The cravings are just as strong as Day 1. That worries me a bit. I have a few things to try and help me through this, but it's getting harder and harder. Today is the beginning of a pretty stressful day with a good ending though.
Tonight I will be checking out the RA Centre's Photo Club. They have having a workshop type thing tonight, so I'm looking forward to that. After this and the open house in a few weeks, I'll decide if this is something I want to pursue. After reading their website, it definitely sounds like something I want to keep with. The club has awesome sounding facilities and a great bunch.
Anyway...as rough as it is...I guess I just keep pushing through. Thanks again for all the support people are showing me. I don't want to let YOU down.
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I have been quit for 6 Days, 1 hour and 6 minutes. I have saved approximately $48.36 by not smoking 120 cigarettes. I have saved 10 hours of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Tonight I will be checking out the RA Centre's Photo Club. They have having a workshop type thing tonight, so I'm looking forward to that. After this and the open house in a few weeks, I'll decide if this is something I want to pursue. After reading their website, it definitely sounds like something I want to keep with. The club has awesome sounding facilities and a great bunch.
Anyway...as rough as it is...I guess I just keep pushing through. Thanks again for all the support people are showing me. I don't want to let YOU down.
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I have been quit for 6 Days, 1 hour and 6 minutes. I have saved approximately $48.36 by not smoking 120 cigarettes. I have saved 10 hours of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Monday, September 14, 2009
the cravings...
Wow...cravings can be wierd things.
was kinda losing my mind a bit with the last bout of cravings. My body had almost convinced me...no wait...it was in my mind...it almost had me convinced that I WANTED to smoke. Not that I needed to...not that it would just get me over that craving, that I actually WANTED to keep smoking again.
I think I got past that one. It's all an internal mental struggle right now, and I don't like it. I just don't like it at all.
I'm still not smoking, but at this rate, I'm not sure my brain is strong enough to keep this up. I may end up going to the loony bin...
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I have been quit for 5 Days, 10 hours, 29 minutes and 1 second (5 days). I have saved $43.48 by not smoking 108 cigarettes. I have saved 9 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 09/09/2009 7:00 AM
was kinda losing my mind a bit with the last bout of cravings. My body had almost convinced me...no wait...it was in my mind...it almost had me convinced that I WANTED to smoke. Not that I needed to...not that it would just get me over that craving, that I actually WANTED to keep smoking again.
I think I got past that one. It's all an internal mental struggle right now, and I don't like it. I just don't like it at all.
I'm still not smoking, but at this rate, I'm not sure my brain is strong enough to keep this up. I may end up going to the loony bin...
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I have been quit for 5 Days, 10 hours, 29 minutes and 1 second (5 days). I have saved $43.48 by not smoking 108 cigarettes. I have saved 9 hours of my life. My Quit Date: 09/09/2009 7:00 AM
Oh the cravings
The cravings are really bad today for some reason. All I can think about is going out to have a smoke. I keep trying to distract myself, but I'm not sure it's really working well for me. I'm just anxious to get home so I can more easily distract myself with some wood working stuff.
Anyway, thought I'd get that out of my system and done with. I think I need to have a big drink of water to take the edge off. Man what a day...
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I have been quit for 5 Days, 6 hours and 26 minutes. I have saved approximately $42.13 by not smoking 105 cigarettes. I have saved 8 hours and 45 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Anyway, thought I'd get that out of my system and done with. I think I need to have a big drink of water to take the edge off. Man what a day...
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I have been quit for 5 Days, 6 hours and 26 minutes. I have saved approximately $42.13 by not smoking 105 cigarettes. I have saved 8 hours and 45 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Day 6 is here
I made it to Day 6 at least! Was a pretty good weekend. I've started this work week off with the newer box of patches, so at least they haven't expired. Not sure if it's making a difference or not. I'm just as twitchy I think. I can't really tell.
Lots of work for me today, so at least I'll be kept busy.
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I have been quit for 5 Days, 2 hours and 8 minutes. I have saved approximately $40.70 by not smoking 101 cigarettes. I have saved 8 hours and 25 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Lots of work for me today, so at least I'll be kept busy.
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I have been quit for 5 Days, 2 hours and 8 minutes. I have saved approximately $40.70 by not smoking 101 cigarettes. I have saved 8 hours and 25 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Day 5!
Well, here we are at Day 5. Cravings are still pretty strong, but that may be in part to me looking at the package of patches and realizing that the expiry date on them was like 6 months ago. I'm guessing I'm not getting fully dosed, or they are just wearing off early (hence the night cravings kicking in).
Off to play some Kubb today at Majors Hill, should keep my mind off things quite well. Lots of things in my mind that I want to do now...
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I have been quit for 4 Days, 4 hours, 1 minute and 12 seconds (4 days). I have saved $33.33 by not smoking 83 cigarettes. I have saved 6 hours and 55 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 09/09/2009 7:00 AM
Off to play some Kubb today at Majors Hill, should keep my mind off things quite well. Lots of things in my mind that I want to do now...
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I have been quit for 4 Days, 4 hours, 1 minute and 12 seconds (4 days). I have saved $33.33 by not smoking 83 cigarettes. I have saved 6 hours and 55 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 09/09/2009 7:00 AM
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Hey, it's Day 4
Made it through the bonfire...that was the first challenge. It was a good time, and I had some pretty strong cravings, but I just powered through them. Today I was up early to head to Swedish classes only to find out it was just registration day. Ack!
Met up with Kestrel as she is going to be taking the classes as well. She's still smoking and she lit up and it didn't even phase me. Well, that's not totally true, I could see myself doing that still, but I just ignored that little voice in my head. Cravings have been there today, but they are not very strong at all. I seem to have regained my appetite a bit too. It's not really bad, but it's there again. That may not be a bad thing, but it also may not be a good thing. As long as I eat healthy, I should be fine.
So, Day 4, and all is well so far. I'm getting there!
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I have been quit for 3 Days, 6 hours, 32 minutes and 3 seconds (3 days). I have saved $26.17 by not smoking 65 cigarettes. I have saved 5 hours and 25 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 09/09/2009 7:00 AM
Met up with Kestrel as she is going to be taking the classes as well. She's still smoking and she lit up and it didn't even phase me. Well, that's not totally true, I could see myself doing that still, but I just ignored that little voice in my head. Cravings have been there today, but they are not very strong at all. I seem to have regained my appetite a bit too. It's not really bad, but it's there again. That may not be a bad thing, but it also may not be a good thing. As long as I eat healthy, I should be fine.
So, Day 4, and all is well so far. I'm getting there!
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I have been quit for 3 Days, 6 hours, 32 minutes and 3 seconds (3 days). I have saved $26.17 by not smoking 65 cigarettes. I have saved 5 hours and 25 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 09/09/2009 7:00 AM
Friday, September 11, 2009
Day 3 continues
Well, its now after lunch. Had a good meal and could actually taste it. Glad I got gravy for the fries. Really popped with flavor.
Treating myself today by going to the barbershop. Have to leave work early to make my appointment, so that's just a bonus to me. Cravings still haven't been too bad today. Guess I'm a lucky day 3'er. Water is helping in a big way too. Drinking lots of it. Mind you, I'm using the Crystal Light juice pack things. That's fine by me. I'm still getting the water into me...right?
Read lots of the myths on the Patch and the mis-information that was given about 12 years ago. Apparently, and mind you it's not something I will do, but if you have a cigarette while on the patch, it's not the end of the world. You won't die from a nicotine overdose like they used to say. They actually now recommend, that if you feel like you're going to backslide, KEEP THE PATCH ON. They did some tests on this, and found that if you keep the patch on and end up having a smoke, odds are over 90% that the quit will work. If you take the patch off, have a smoke, odds are you're going to keep smoking at that point. Good to know, but as I said, I'm not planning on doing that anyway.
They also mention that using multiple methods will not seriously harm you. If you are on the patch and are having a serious craving that may make you cave (like I was having last night...but I worked through it), chew a piece of nicotine gum or something. It will take the edge off, and it won't do you serious harm.
I'm almost convinced that the patch loses some effect later in the day, like after about 12 hours (even though they are 24 hour patches). At about 6pm, I'm starting to get serious cravings. Maybe I'll keep some of the nicotine gum around (I have some leftover from my last quit attempt).
Well, getting ready for my haircut and shave...
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I have been quit for 2 days. I have saved approximately $17.72 by not smoking 44 cigarettes. I have saved 3 hours and 40 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Treating myself today by going to the barbershop. Have to leave work early to make my appointment, so that's just a bonus to me. Cravings still haven't been too bad today. Guess I'm a lucky day 3'er. Water is helping in a big way too. Drinking lots of it. Mind you, I'm using the Crystal Light juice pack things. That's fine by me. I'm still getting the water into me...right?
Read lots of the myths on the Patch and the mis-information that was given about 12 years ago. Apparently, and mind you it's not something I will do, but if you have a cigarette while on the patch, it's not the end of the world. You won't die from a nicotine overdose like they used to say. They actually now recommend, that if you feel like you're going to backslide, KEEP THE PATCH ON. They did some tests on this, and found that if you keep the patch on and end up having a smoke, odds are over 90% that the quit will work. If you take the patch off, have a smoke, odds are you're going to keep smoking at that point. Good to know, but as I said, I'm not planning on doing that anyway.
They also mention that using multiple methods will not seriously harm you. If you are on the patch and are having a serious craving that may make you cave (like I was having last night...but I worked through it), chew a piece of nicotine gum or something. It will take the edge off, and it won't do you serious harm.
I'm almost convinced that the patch loses some effect later in the day, like after about 12 hours (even though they are 24 hour patches). At about 6pm, I'm starting to get serious cravings. Maybe I'll keep some of the nicotine gum around (I have some leftover from my last quit attempt).
Well, getting ready for my haircut and shave...
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I have been quit for 2 days. I have saved approximately $17.72 by not smoking 44 cigarettes. I have saved 3 hours and 40 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Day 3 - Hell Day
Well, it's day 3. Hell Day. And it's September 11. 8 year anniversary of the WTC attack. Add to that going for a bonfire tonight. This is gonna be a rough day.
Cravings haven't hit too hard today, I'm thankful for that so far. I'll have to wait and see what happens though. This could either be a very good day, or a very bad day. I'm sure I'll find out soon enough.
Not much more to say right now other than I'm gonna go to the barber shop today to get the royal treatment. I can't believe how inexpensive the place is!
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I have been quit for 2 days. I have saved approximately $16.68 by not smoking 41 cigarettes. I have saved 3 hours and 25 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Cravings haven't hit too hard today, I'm thankful for that so far. I'll have to wait and see what happens though. This could either be a very good day, or a very bad day. I'm sure I'll find out soon enough.
Not much more to say right now other than I'm gonna go to the barber shop today to get the royal treatment. I can't believe how inexpensive the place is!
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I have been quit for 2 days. I have saved approximately $16.68 by not smoking 41 cigarettes. I have saved 3 hours and 25 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Day 2 continues
Well, Lunch is over, and I didn't feel like going out for a smoke. So that's a good thing. I'm munching away on a plastic straw to help out the cravings as they hit. That was a good idea. I must remember to thank those that told me of this one.
The cravings are still there, but they are almost muted, like they are in the background. I'm going to do some wood working tonight when I get home so I can keep my hands busy. Should be productive. I'm a bit worried about the bonfire tomorrow night, it will be day 3 which is a nasty day for quitting. Keeping my eye on the prize...
Someone told me that I should have rewards in mind and give myself a reward when I hit "milestones". I guess I should think of something for Day 3...
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I have been quit for 1 days. I have saved approximately $9.95 by not smoking 24 cigarettes. I have saved 2 hours of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
The cravings are still there, but they are almost muted, like they are in the background. I'm going to do some wood working tonight when I get home so I can keep my hands busy. Should be productive. I'm a bit worried about the bonfire tomorrow night, it will be day 3 which is a nasty day for quitting. Keeping my eye on the prize...
Someone told me that I should have rewards in mind and give myself a reward when I hit "milestones". I guess I should think of something for Day 3...
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I have been quit for 1 days. I have saved approximately $9.95 by not smoking 24 cigarettes. I have saved 2 hours of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Day 2 jitters
Well, almost lunch time now. I took some advice I got from my chainmail forum and got some straws from the cafeteria here and cut them all in half and am chewing on them. That actually seems to help a bit when the cravings hit. Now I'm going to be addicted to bendy straws. lol
Been a long day so far, and I figured it would be. I've got lots done though, so I feel good about that. Swedish classes are starting soon, that'll be cool.
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I have been quit for 1 days. I have saved approximately $9.46 by not smoking 23 cigarettes. I have saved 1 hour and 55 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Been a long day so far, and I figured it would be. I've got lots done though, so I feel good about that. Swedish classes are starting soon, that'll be cool.
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I have been quit for 1 days. I have saved approximately $9.46 by not smoking 23 cigarettes. I have saved 1 hour and 55 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Day 2 - Oh my F***ing Hel!
Ok, last night was terrible. After getting all my Ikea furniture together, things started to bite. With my Nicotine patch falling off all the time, I'm sure I wasn't getting my dose. Where's the Methodone clinic when you need one? Just KIDDING.
I woke up this morning with heavy cravings. The morning smoke thing. It was a routine. I'm sure it was probably mostly mental cravings, but still they were brutal. It was taking all the willpower I had to not say "screw it" at that point and just start the quit process all over.
I did push through, had a shower and put a new patch on. I hope this one doesn't fall off in the middle of the day.
To describe what I'm feeling. I now know how Loki feels. Being bound beneath the earth with venom dripping on his forehead. It's gotta feel like this. It really does! I'm still pretty twitchy, but then I haven't had my coffee yet. I can't really think too straight yet as I'm still a bit light-headed. I haven't been binging on food though, so that's a good thing. Perhaps I can NOT gain weight from quitting smoking. That would be nice.
Well, back to work for me. Needed to vent and get a bit of this out of my system. There WILL be more later. I can almost guarantee that!
Oh look, I can add stats!
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I have been quit for 1 days. I have saved approximately $8.40 by not smoking 21 cigarettes. I have saved 1 hour and 45 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
I woke up this morning with heavy cravings. The morning smoke thing. It was a routine. I'm sure it was probably mostly mental cravings, but still they were brutal. It was taking all the willpower I had to not say "screw it" at that point and just start the quit process all over.
I did push through, had a shower and put a new patch on. I hope this one doesn't fall off in the middle of the day.
To describe what I'm feeling. I now know how Loki feels. Being bound beneath the earth with venom dripping on his forehead. It's gotta feel like this. It really does! I'm still pretty twitchy, but then I haven't had my coffee yet. I can't really think too straight yet as I'm still a bit light-headed. I haven't been binging on food though, so that's a good thing. Perhaps I can NOT gain weight from quitting smoking. That would be nice.
Well, back to work for me. Needed to vent and get a bit of this out of my system. There WILL be more later. I can almost guarantee that!
Oh look, I can add stats!
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I have been quit for 1 days. I have saved approximately $8.40 by not smoking 21 cigarettes. I have saved 1 hour and 45 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Day 1 continued...
Well, it's the 12 hour mark now...cravings are REALLY strong. probably because the patch fell off and isn't sticking very well anymore. That part really sucks. It's frightening how bad I want to go have a smoke. I remember cravings being bad before, but until ya go through it again, it never seems this bad.
I'm rambling and not thinking too straight. I'm gonna go make some food and watch TV for a bit...maybe it will take my mind off things
I'm rambling and not thinking too straight. I'm gonna go make some food and watch TV for a bit...maybe it will take my mind off things
Day 1 - ikea hell
Ok, it's Hell week...I get that. But c'mon...
I'm busy putting together Ikea furniture (DVD shelves if ya must know) and I was working away, got the first one together and was about to start on the second and realized the cravings were starting to hit me. Not entirely sure why, I pushed through the second shelf and got it all together. I then realized I'm thirsty so I go grab a pop and decide I should relax before putting the last shelf together (yes, I have that many friggin DVDs).
I had taken my shirt off to work as it was pretty warm, and I look down and realize my patch is missing. Sure enough, there it is stuck in my shirt. No bloody wonder I was having cravings all of a sudden...so yeah, the patches must work.
Well, I must go re-apply the patch, lest I slip and fall..
I'm busy putting together Ikea furniture (DVD shelves if ya must know) and I was working away, got the first one together and was about to start on the second and realized the cravings were starting to hit me. Not entirely sure why, I pushed through the second shelf and got it all together. I then realized I'm thirsty so I go grab a pop and decide I should relax before putting the last shelf together (yes, I have that many friggin DVDs).
I had taken my shirt off to work as it was pretty warm, and I look down and realize my patch is missing. Sure enough, there it is stuck in my shirt. No bloody wonder I was having cravings all of a sudden...so yeah, the patches must work.
Well, I must go re-apply the patch, lest I slip and fall..
Day 1 continues
Well, felt the need to post. I made it through lunch. I knew that was going to be tough. I took a walk after I ate and normally I would be sparking up a smoke for the walk. I got to the store to pick up some of those crystal light singles for my water bottle. Got those, got some organic halloween suckers (thought it was neat..made with cane sugar), and made the trek back to work. On the way back, not one craving. This may be a good sign for me. I just have to keep remembering my reasons for wanting to quit this time.
I'm approaching my 6 hour mark. Doesn't sound like much, but to me it's a milestone ;-)
I'm approaching my 6 hour mark. Doesn't sound like much, but to me it's a milestone ;-)
Day 1
Well, it's finally here. Day 1. I've decided, once again, to quit smoking.
I have many reasons to do this, as well as blog what I'm going through.
First, I need to express what I'm feeling, so I can get past that feeling. You're going to see lots of posts here in the next few days I'm gathering.
Second, I can look back on what I've written if I ever think I should start again. Because, when it comes time to quit again, I'd see what I went through. That should be enough for me not to start up again.
Third, I've been through this before. About 6 years ago I had quit smoking, but started up again during my trip to Sweden. Actually, yeah, I had my first smoke while I was in Sweden. We were all out drinking at a bar, and I was offered a smoke. I turned it down at first, but a few glasses of scotch and a beer or two later, I had one. Yeah, it tasted like crap.
But then, I get to Amsterdam and stopped at a coffee shop. Now here is where the mental process breaks down. Before heading to a coffee shop (for those that aren't savvy about Amsterdam, a coffee shop is where you can smoke pot legally), I decided to grab a pack of smokes. I didn't want to cough up a lung at the coffee shop, so I figured I'd have a smoke to prepare my lungs for what was about to come. That was my mistake. That got me hooked on the nicotine again.
Anyway, I started smoking again was the bottom line.
Earlier this year I decided I needed to quit, but I just couldn't find the right time or method. I initially tried the gum, but that tasted terrible, and I'm not a big gum chewer to begin with. Then I tried the inhaler. A buddy at work was quitting and let me give it a try. It was interesting, but not quite what I was hoping for. I went out and bought enough patches to get me through the first month, but never did use them. I just started smoking again.
Then there were the camping trips that were inevitable. I knew sitting around, being a bit bored, I'd want to smoke, so I decided not to stress myself in these situations, so I kept smoking. See, it's all mental stupidity that kept me smoking.
Oh, and to go a bit further back, when I was trying to quit, I had a trip to Orlando with Robyn. I was sure I'd be able to kick the smokes before going, but I couldn't. I was even trying to sneak out for a smoke. Yeah, I was stupid doing that. I knew that she knew, but I still snuck around to have a smoke. Then I saw that smokes were pretty cheap there, and said "screw it" and bought some. Back to square one I went.
So here I am. I've been almost 4 hours now without a smoke, and I'm a bit twitchy. One suggestion people have is to keep your hands busy, so I'll be blogging quite a bit.
But now, let's go through what I've been through in the last 4 hours.
at about 6:30 I woke up, and went and had a smoke. It was a reactionary thing, I'm sure. Then Gwen asked if I was going to put on the patch today and start my quit. I wasn't sure. I know I wasn't sure if I was going to quit. Even right now writing this, I doubt myself a bit. But then I just get past that doubt and keep going.
I put the patch on before heading out for work. I got my coffee at Timmies, went upstairs to the office and started doing some work. I've been working on keeping busy. My next hurdle would be breakfast.
Well, went down for breakfast, ate, and went straight back upstairs. My usual was to go out and have a smoke with Shawn. I told him he was on his own today and he mentioned he saw my facebook status and figured as much.
Mentally right now I think I'm craving it, because I've missed my last few smoke breaks. My hands are a bit shaky, I'm a bit light-headed, and I tend to just stare off into space. I find myself drinking more coffee to compensate...that may be the shakiness, however, I've not had more coffee that I normally would on a normal day, so I dismissed that fact. I'm also a bit itchy. It's probably just the nerves doing that right now as it's my hands that are itchy. Maybe my fingers are missing the nicotine on them...lol
Back to work now. Time to breathe, relax, take it one hour at a time right now. I have gum beside me, but as I said, I'm not a gum chewer. I may grab a straw from the cafeteria to chew on and breath through...I don't really know at this point.
Stay tuned...there WILL be more updates.
I have many reasons to do this, as well as blog what I'm going through.
First, I need to express what I'm feeling, so I can get past that feeling. You're going to see lots of posts here in the next few days I'm gathering.
Second, I can look back on what I've written if I ever think I should start again. Because, when it comes time to quit again, I'd see what I went through. That should be enough for me not to start up again.
Third, I've been through this before. About 6 years ago I had quit smoking, but started up again during my trip to Sweden. Actually, yeah, I had my first smoke while I was in Sweden. We were all out drinking at a bar, and I was offered a smoke. I turned it down at first, but a few glasses of scotch and a beer or two later, I had one. Yeah, it tasted like crap.
But then, I get to Amsterdam and stopped at a coffee shop. Now here is where the mental process breaks down. Before heading to a coffee shop (for those that aren't savvy about Amsterdam, a coffee shop is where you can smoke pot legally), I decided to grab a pack of smokes. I didn't want to cough up a lung at the coffee shop, so I figured I'd have a smoke to prepare my lungs for what was about to come. That was my mistake. That got me hooked on the nicotine again.
Anyway, I started smoking again was the bottom line.
Earlier this year I decided I needed to quit, but I just couldn't find the right time or method. I initially tried the gum, but that tasted terrible, and I'm not a big gum chewer to begin with. Then I tried the inhaler. A buddy at work was quitting and let me give it a try. It was interesting, but not quite what I was hoping for. I went out and bought enough patches to get me through the first month, but never did use them. I just started smoking again.
Then there were the camping trips that were inevitable. I knew sitting around, being a bit bored, I'd want to smoke, so I decided not to stress myself in these situations, so I kept smoking. See, it's all mental stupidity that kept me smoking.
Oh, and to go a bit further back, when I was trying to quit, I had a trip to Orlando with Robyn. I was sure I'd be able to kick the smokes before going, but I couldn't. I was even trying to sneak out for a smoke. Yeah, I was stupid doing that. I knew that she knew, but I still snuck around to have a smoke. Then I saw that smokes were pretty cheap there, and said "screw it" and bought some. Back to square one I went.
So here I am. I've been almost 4 hours now without a smoke, and I'm a bit twitchy. One suggestion people have is to keep your hands busy, so I'll be blogging quite a bit.
But now, let's go through what I've been through in the last 4 hours.
at about 6:30 I woke up, and went and had a smoke. It was a reactionary thing, I'm sure. Then Gwen asked if I was going to put on the patch today and start my quit. I wasn't sure. I know I wasn't sure if I was going to quit. Even right now writing this, I doubt myself a bit. But then I just get past that doubt and keep going.
I put the patch on before heading out for work. I got my coffee at Timmies, went upstairs to the office and started doing some work. I've been working on keeping busy. My next hurdle would be breakfast.
Well, went down for breakfast, ate, and went straight back upstairs. My usual was to go out and have a smoke with Shawn. I told him he was on his own today and he mentioned he saw my facebook status and figured as much.
Mentally right now I think I'm craving it, because I've missed my last few smoke breaks. My hands are a bit shaky, I'm a bit light-headed, and I tend to just stare off into space. I find myself drinking more coffee to compensate...that may be the shakiness, however, I've not had more coffee that I normally would on a normal day, so I dismissed that fact. I'm also a bit itchy. It's probably just the nerves doing that right now as it's my hands that are itchy. Maybe my fingers are missing the nicotine on them...lol
Back to work now. Time to breathe, relax, take it one hour at a time right now. I have gum beside me, but as I said, I'm not a gum chewer. I may grab a straw from the cafeteria to chew on and breath through...I don't really know at this point.
Stay tuned...there WILL be more updates.
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