Yesterday as I waited patiently for the bus to head to my friends place for some quiet time, I woudl normally have had a smoke. I realized this as I saw and older guy pacing back and forth having a smoke. I realized that used to be me.
Then I noticed that as soon as he tossed his butt to the curb, he lit another smoke. Now, the bus was running a bit late, and I had to wait a total of 15 minutes. In that 15 minutes, I watched this guy have 4 cigs.
I did some chatting yesterday with some coworkers over our break about smoking.
When I smoked, it was about 20 a day. Just under a pack here in Canada (they stuff 'em to 25 here). I found that I would "time" myself between smokes. I'd try to at least wait an hour. It was like a game to me somehow. I made that hour mark my trigger also. Stupid me.
Anyway, I realized that I must have smoked more than every hour as I would have had to be awake 20 hours a day to pull that off. Then realized, yep, in the morning I would have one when I wake up, and one on the way to work (30 minutes apart). Before breakfast at work I'd have one, then one after (30 minutes apart). Same at lunch time...and other times in the day.
Anyway...that was me smoking a U.S. pack a day. Every hour. Now I think of those that smoked 3 packs a day...no wait, they were Canadian that said that, so that's 75 cigs a DAY. Assuming you are awake 16 hours a day (8 hours to sleep), that is one smoke every 12.8 minutes. When do you have time to do ANYTHING else?
I'm not trying to tell others how to live, but how can you live when you do nothing but smoke? I figure it takes about 4-5 minutes to smoke, so that leaves 7-8 minutes BETWEEN lighting up? All I can think is that sex must be DANGEROUS. lol
Anyway, that's my little rant for the day. I'm sure I'll come up with another soon enough.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
funny
A co-worker that I used to go out and have a smoke with stopped me at the door as she was headed out for a smoke. She looks at me and says "Did you quit smoking?" I'm like..yeah, almost 2 months ago now. She comments "huh, didn't even notice". I told her I don't even notice anymore that I used to smoke, as I don't have the urge to go outside and freeze for a smoke. and then her comment, that made me laugh..."Well, I guess that's both a good and a bad thing". Huh? What? I had to get an explanation. Her explanation "Well, it's good for you that you quit, but bad because now you aren't outside with us". Nope, that's a GOOD thing on both accounts.
Sorry.
I have been quit for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 4 Days, 2 hours and 10 minutes. I have saved approximately $384.71 by not smoking 961 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 8 hours and 5 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
Sorry.
I have been quit for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 4 Days, 2 hours and 10 minutes. I have saved approximately $384.71 by not smoking 961 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 8 hours and 5 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
Monday, October 26, 2009
It's monday again
Well, we're back to another monday. All is pretty good however. Cravings are down (yay) and spirits are high (yay again!)
Had a great weekend. I just wish I could remember more of Saturday. Hmm.. Oh yeah, went costume shopping on Saturday for a bit, I remember that much. Sunday was very memorable.
In the morning I went to the RA Centre for my introduction to the photo studio at the club. We had a model there to shoot while we tried different lighting setups and props and stuff. It was quite informative, and I got quite a few good shots (I think anyway). We were in for just over 4 hours, and not once did I have to think "can we take a break so I can grab a smoke". That was nice and liberating.
After that I went back home, had some lunch and then headed off to meet up with Robyn for the Zombie walk. OMG. That was a blast! There was something just so much fun about being silly. We had a great time, and got interviewed by the Metro news and also the Ottawa Citizen. Everyone seemed to want a picture of me hanging in the tree. Robyn told me not to post yet, but I have to put a picture up.
Had a great weekend. I just wish I could remember more of Saturday. Hmm.. Oh yeah, went costume shopping on Saturday for a bit, I remember that much. Sunday was very memorable.
In the morning I went to the RA Centre for my introduction to the photo studio at the club. We had a model there to shoot while we tried different lighting setups and props and stuff. It was quite informative, and I got quite a few good shots (I think anyway). We were in for just over 4 hours, and not once did I have to think "can we take a break so I can grab a smoke". That was nice and liberating.
After that I went back home, had some lunch and then headed off to meet up with Robyn for the Zombie walk. OMG. That was a blast! There was something just so much fun about being silly. We had a great time, and got interviewed by the Metro news and also the Ottawa Citizen. Everyone seemed to want a picture of me hanging in the tree. Robyn told me not to post yet, but I have to put a picture up.
Sorry Robyn ;-)
Anyway, I had lots of fun at that. After finishing up with the undead, I met up with Gwen at Carlingwood mall where we then proceeded to go out for dinner for her sisters birthday. It was a VERY full day all in all, and the cravings didn't really hit too hard. It's fun now!
Anyway, I'll post the stats!
I have been quit for 1 Month, 2 Weeks, 3 Days, 3 hours and 56 minutes. I have saved approximately $377.30 by not smoking 943 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 6 hours and 35 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Been a bit
Yeah, it's been probably what, a week since I posted here? Yeah, I kinda got behind didn't I.
Anyway, it's been 42 days now, hence the reason for the post. It's 42 man! I've been smoke free for 42 days. Maybe THAT'S the answer. Hmm..
Anyway, I just made one more step down. I'm on Step 3 now...the last step. Patches are pretty small, dosage is smaller. This could be a crazy day. Stress levels are peaking a bit too.
What's happened lately. Well, went to Canada's Wonderland again, this time for the Halloween Haunt. It was pretty cool. Cravings were minimal on the trip up. This is my first long trip without a smoke. Well, not long, but almost 5 hours, so that's long enough. I think I looked at the clock once and said to myself "Hmm, would almost be time to stop for a smoke". That was it. I noticed lots of people smoking in the park even though they are supposed to stay in "designated areas". Oh well, can't police everything.
Then there is the issue of me thinking about getting a car. This has stressed me out quite a bit over the last day. I almost cracked last night, but decided to just let it pass. It took a lot to let it pass, I had to play some of my video game and then go to bed. Was not a fun time. But it too shall pass and things will get better.
This smaller patch may hurt a bit today, but I just have to persevere and get through it...right?
I have been quit for 1 Month, 1 Week, 5 Days, 1 hour and 4 minutes. I have saved approximately $336.34 by not smoking 840 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Days and 22 hours of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Anyway, it's been 42 days now, hence the reason for the post. It's 42 man! I've been smoke free for 42 days. Maybe THAT'S the answer. Hmm..
Anyway, I just made one more step down. I'm on Step 3 now...the last step. Patches are pretty small, dosage is smaller. This could be a crazy day. Stress levels are peaking a bit too.
What's happened lately. Well, went to Canada's Wonderland again, this time for the Halloween Haunt. It was pretty cool. Cravings were minimal on the trip up. This is my first long trip without a smoke. Well, not long, but almost 5 hours, so that's long enough. I think I looked at the clock once and said to myself "Hmm, would almost be time to stop for a smoke". That was it. I noticed lots of people smoking in the park even though they are supposed to stay in "designated areas". Oh well, can't police everything.
Then there is the issue of me thinking about getting a car. This has stressed me out quite a bit over the last day. I almost cracked last night, but decided to just let it pass. It took a lot to let it pass, I had to play some of my video game and then go to bed. Was not a fun time. But it too shall pass and things will get better.
This smaller patch may hurt a bit today, but I just have to persevere and get through it...right?
I have been quit for 1 Month, 1 Week, 5 Days, 1 hour and 4 minutes. I have saved approximately $336.34 by not smoking 840 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Days and 22 hours of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Friday, October 16, 2009
Rough night
Ok, so last night, I get home and flake out on the couch. I was just beat. I decided to play some hockey on my Xbox for a while and upgrade my computer (playing the xbox between reboots). All was good and I realized that I had to ship out an ebay sale, so I had to wrap it in the plain paper stuff they sell. I can't wrap xmas gifts, how the hell did I think I was gonna pull this off? It was a big box, and not easy to manipulate. It was a guitar and amp all packaged up.
Anyway, I get some of the paper on there, just barely and as I maneuvered the box so I could put another slab of paper on, the first one ripped. Not where I taped it, but where it WASN'T taped. I was very frustrated with this. I was cursing and swearing and just getting VERY upset with it. My nerves were just shot! I continued to yell, and curse and finally, after an hour (yeah, an hour) I got this thing sealed up nice and tight. There is almost a whole roll of packing tape on this bloody thing. I actually feel sorry for the purchaser, cause now they have to try and open it when they get it.
I'm not sure why I was getting so upset at such a trivial thing. I haven't had these feelings of homicide since I quit really. And then, add to that, as I'm trying to go to sleep, the cat starts howling. Not meowing, HOWLING. She is loud now. Usually it's just to come up on the bed (and the cat IS allowed to do that), so I pat the bed, cat comes up and bascially yells in my ear. I grab the cat by the scruff of the neck, pick her up and just lay into her verbally. Why? I don't know. I've got my patch on. I guess everything just built up and exploded at once. I hope that part is over.
Anyway, still not smoking!
I have been quit for 1 Month, 1 Week, 1 hour and 3 minutes. I have saved approximately $296.34 by not smoking 740 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Days, 13 hours and 40 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM. http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Anyway, I get some of the paper on there, just barely and as I maneuvered the box so I could put another slab of paper on, the first one ripped. Not where I taped it, but where it WASN'T taped. I was very frustrated with this. I was cursing and swearing and just getting VERY upset with it. My nerves were just shot! I continued to yell, and curse and finally, after an hour (yeah, an hour) I got this thing sealed up nice and tight. There is almost a whole roll of packing tape on this bloody thing. I actually feel sorry for the purchaser, cause now they have to try and open it when they get it.
I'm not sure why I was getting so upset at such a trivial thing. I haven't had these feelings of homicide since I quit really. And then, add to that, as I'm trying to go to sleep, the cat starts howling. Not meowing, HOWLING. She is loud now. Usually it's just to come up on the bed (and the cat IS allowed to do that), so I pat the bed, cat comes up and bascially yells in my ear. I grab the cat by the scruff of the neck, pick her up and just lay into her verbally. Why? I don't know. I've got my patch on. I guess everything just built up and exploded at once. I hope that part is over.
Anyway, still not smoking!
I have been quit for 1 Month, 1 Week, 1 hour and 3 minutes. I have saved approximately $296.34 by not smoking 740 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Days, 13 hours and 40 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM. http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Been a while
Yeah, it's been a while since I've posted, but things are going good.
Did the thanksgiving weekend without too many cravings. I may have had a few, but they weren't that bad. I think things are starting to get a little bit better, which is better than not being good...right?
Yeah, it's been a bit rough at times, but I did get through those times. I'm here as proof of that.
So yep, still not smoking, and I'm actually quite proud of myself for this.
I have been quit for 1 Month, 4 Days, 5 hours and 43 minutes. I have saved approximately $273.89 by not smoking 684 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Days and 9 hours of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Did the thanksgiving weekend without too many cravings. I may have had a few, but they weren't that bad. I think things are starting to get a little bit better, which is better than not being good...right?
Yeah, it's been a bit rough at times, but I did get through those times. I'm here as proof of that.
So yep, still not smoking, and I'm actually quite proud of myself for this.
I have been quit for 1 Month, 4 Days, 5 hours and 43 minutes. I have saved approximately $273.89 by not smoking 684 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Days and 9 hours of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Friday, October 9, 2009
Month!
It's been a month! Officially now! One Month...
Damn the cravings were bad last night. First night at home alone watching a hockey game though. I'm sure that's the reason for it.
Also, when I went out to do some photos I checked my pocket for my cigs. Not sure why, but I needed to check. I had this desire to smoke, but I didn't. I got through the night ok in the end.
Anyway, not much more to say at this time. Thanksgiving weekend coming up, I may post this weekend, but then I may not. Hard to say at this point.
I have been quit for 1 Month, 4 hours and 7 minutes. I have saved approximately $241.36 by not smoking 603 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Days, 2 hours and 15 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Damn the cravings were bad last night. First night at home alone watching a hockey game though. I'm sure that's the reason for it.
Also, when I went out to do some photos I checked my pocket for my cigs. Not sure why, but I needed to check. I had this desire to smoke, but I didn't. I got through the night ok in the end.
Anyway, not much more to say at this time. Thanksgiving weekend coming up, I may post this weekend, but then I may not. Hard to say at this point.
I have been quit for 1 Month, 4 hours and 7 minutes. I have saved approximately $241.36 by not smoking 603 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Days, 2 hours and 15 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
4 Weeks gone!
Well, it's officially been 4 weeks without a smoke. Yay Me. I posted over on the forums that I frequent during this quit the following little tidbit.
Listening to Sixx AM this morning, this song snippet is dedicated to the NicoDemon...
"This is just a courtesy call. This is just a matter of policy. This is just an act of kindness to let you know that your time is UP!"
4 weeks. Seriously? Yeah, it's been almost a month (technically 2 days away). Who designed these silly ass months to be 30 or 31 days...or 29 or 28 in one single month for that matter? Sheesh. Let's all just go back to the lunar calendar, it's easier, and it puts me at a month today ;)
That's all for now folks. Oh and I'm stepped to #2 now. Less nicotine now. I'm a bit jittery, but it shall pass.
I have been quit for 4 Weeks and 1 hour. I have saved approximately $224.32 by not smoking 560 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 22 hours and 40 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Listening to Sixx AM this morning, this song snippet is dedicated to the NicoDemon...
"This is just a courtesy call. This is just a matter of policy. This is just an act of kindness to let you know that your time is UP!"
4 weeks. Seriously? Yeah, it's been almost a month (technically 2 days away). Who designed these silly ass months to be 30 or 31 days...or 29 or 28 in one single month for that matter? Sheesh. Let's all just go back to the lunar calendar, it's easier, and it puts me at a month today ;)
That's all for now folks. Oh and I'm stepped to #2 now. Less nicotine now. I'm a bit jittery, but it shall pass.
I have been quit for 4 Weeks and 1 hour. I have saved approximately $224.32 by not smoking 560 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 22 hours and 40 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Now that's odd
I woke up this morning, got ready for work, showered, put on a new patch and then got my jacket and shoes on. As I was getting ready to leave, I patted down all my pockets to ensure I had a pack of smokes and a lighter on me. What the hell? I didn't, obviously, but that's the first time since I quit that I've actually done that.
Worst part is, if I had found some, I likely would have lit up when I got outside. I may have puked, but the habit would have made me light up. Sheesh. Strange how these things work.
Tomorrow I step down to Step 2. This could be an interesting thing. 2/3 the nicotine (14mg instead of 21mg). We'll have to see how it goes tomorrow. I hope it doesn't feel like day 1 again.
I have been quit for 3 Weeks, 6 Days, 2 hours and 51 minutes. I have saved approximately $216.94 by not smoking 542 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 21 hours and 10 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
Worst part is, if I had found some, I likely would have lit up when I got outside. I may have puked, but the habit would have made me light up. Sheesh. Strange how these things work.
Tomorrow I step down to Step 2. This could be an interesting thing. 2/3 the nicotine (14mg instead of 21mg). We'll have to see how it goes tomorrow. I hope it doesn't feel like day 1 again.
I have been quit for 3 Weeks, 6 Days, 2 hours and 51 minutes. I have saved approximately $216.94 by not smoking 542 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 21 hours and 10 minutes of my life that would have been spent outside smoking. My Quit Date: 9/9/2009 7:00 AM.
http://vidar-quit-smoking.blogspot.com
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